Playing a Cupid's Life

I guess that most of the people in this world should understand what a Cupid means. However, how the story originated, is beyond my knowledge. Perhaps, that's what happened to most people who does not read any other things except for their text books. Nonetheless, the figure of a Cupid does remains strong in my mind, in the sense that he/she (I doesn't really know about this God sexuality) helps to match up people who is loving each other. How noble such an act were.

In the Toasim point of view, this task was passed to a God by the name of "Yue Lao", where this God will went down to earth, then tie an invisible red string on the leg of men and women. Whoever legs were connected with a same red string, then that man and woman will ended up as husband and wife. And if a green string were used, then the couple will break off, or divorce if they were married. That's how ancient beliefs that had been brought down to us, and to make us believe that all relationship were match by the one we called God. Or put it a simple meaning, fate.

How true is that? Half, I should say. Is true that some people believe that fate will bring their life partner to them. However, if we didn't appreciate it when the fate arrive, it equals to zero.

Just today, I came acrossed my colleague who had a feeling towards my junior. I can't help but to give him all the advises, encouragements, and some of the things that he need to do to catch the girl heart. Sound like I am playing a role as a Cupid. Well, that's the thing I can do. Whether he took the advises that I gave him is beyond my control. Or perhaps the plan got backfired if he did follows my advises. Whatever happened, only Heaven will know.

Then, something which is quite weird does arose from my inner sense after I told him of my idea how to win the girl heart. Isn't all these words had been lamented to me by my other colleague when they are trying to match me up with my junior during her training? How can I actually tell my friend what he should be doing, when I myself didn't apply such an action before. Perhaps, what I really want to see is two persons being happy together. I didn't know whether both of them will be together in the future or not. However, just as I said before, as long as both of them are happy, I am happy for them. Who's says that when you like someone, you need him/her to be with you. I believe that when you like someone, it is not necessary to be together, but to see and make them happy is the best way of describing our love to other person

Finally Back in Business

Ever wonder why wanderer had been wandering away from his blog?? Well, just to declare here that I am back in the show business now, which what I am currently doing now.... (typing article for my blog)....

For the last month, lots of events had happened to myself. And most of the events had makes me understand myself more, and some does changes my life as well. I began to understand why my friends used to called me a pessimistic person, because I used to look down on myself. My colleagues had noticed this behaviour in myself, because I always said something bad about myself whenever they asked me to go after my juniour who currently underwent training in my company now (note: I admit that I had a little crush on her as well). This attitude actually made me unable perform my duty to the best effort, because I doubted on my ability. Which is why I something got shooting from other people.

Or, put it into another word.....I do not have self confident in myself. I compared with people, saying how good looking they are, good in socializing and good in sports. I know that is not a wise idea to compare among people, but this is what the society is doing...like to compare with other people around them about this and that. My friend told me that very human, who live in this world had his/her motives. Is what he is telling me is true? I had to put it on a reasonably doubt status.

So, I do hope that I can build my self-confident level from today onwards. I wonder whether I can make it or not....it seems like a high mountain to climb. But one thing for sure, even though if in the future, I do really gain back my self confident, I will still regret in my life, because I had missed out a lot of things, which I can able to own it before, but lost it due to my lack of slef-confident....